Not much more than a decade ago, my world was a much simpler place. I had only myself to worry about. I worked my ass off by day, and played hard at night and on weekends. A big part of me wanted time to stop so nothing in my life would change. My biggest challenge in life back then was getting to the drop zone early enough on friday evening to make the sunset load to kick off my weekend. For the next 48 hours, I would literally fall off the radar (pun intended). The summer weekends at Skydive Oregon were incredible. I would turn off my cell phone and forget about work and the outside world. I would jump all day and spend the evenings partying well into the wee hours of the morning with an amazing group of friends. After a few hours of sleep, I would stumble out of my tent or trailer as the first rays of sun light fell across the runway, and would do it all over again.
It was a magical time in my life. Selfish, and self-serving? of course it was. I do miss those days immensely, but I have to say the only thing I would trade that for is my little family. It is more work than I could have ever imagined. I don't think I have had a decent nights sleep in the nearly five years since Apollo was born. I cant remember the last time I took time for just myself. To get a spare moment to write a blog usually only happens late at night or early in the morning while everyone else is sleeping. Being sleep deprived, I am often falling asleep mid sentence while typing, only to wake up to a couple hundred comma's. But the part that is hard to convey is the amazing satisfaction and deep seeded love that I feel when in the presence of my sons. I am greeted daily when I get home from work from giggling boys running and hiding, or wanting me to chase them around the house or yard, just to scoop them up laughing hardily, and have their little arms wrap around my neck and hug me tightly. It is a just reward for the endless sacrifices made on their behalf.
It is through the light that shines from Apollo and Orion that I can see how lucky I am to have such a beautiful and wonderful wife. I am fortunate enough that she gave me the most precious gift that a man can ask for. My sacrifices pale in comparison to the sacrifices that she has made for me and our sons, and for this I am forever grateful.
Happy Valentines Day Melanie.
It was a magical time in my life. Selfish, and self-serving? of course it was. I do miss those days immensely, but I have to say the only thing I would trade that for is my little family. It is more work than I could have ever imagined. I don't think I have had a decent nights sleep in the nearly five years since Apollo was born. I cant remember the last time I took time for just myself. To get a spare moment to write a blog usually only happens late at night or early in the morning while everyone else is sleeping. Being sleep deprived, I am often falling asleep mid sentence while typing, only to wake up to a couple hundred comma's. But the part that is hard to convey is the amazing satisfaction and deep seeded love that I feel when in the presence of my sons. I am greeted daily when I get home from work from giggling boys running and hiding, or wanting me to chase them around the house or yard, just to scoop them up laughing hardily, and have their little arms wrap around my neck and hug me tightly. It is a just reward for the endless sacrifices made on their behalf.It is through the light that shines from Apollo and Orion that I can see how lucky I am to have such a beautiful and wonderful wife. I am fortunate enough that she gave me the most precious gift that a man can ask for. My sacrifices pale in comparison to the sacrifices that she has made for me and our sons, and for this I am forever grateful.
Happy Valentines Day Melanie.
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